"IF" is a very big word....

Sometimes... actually more than sometimes, I wonder what Paulo Coelho must have been thinking when he penned down "If you want something, the entire universe will conspire to give it to you". Because as far as I know..... the universe has never really bothered with what we lesser mortals want! Anyway I'll leave ranting about my life for later posts, lets talk about life and its games.... sometimes I really wish Life was not a sportsperson....(Leave it if you didn't get the joke!)

One of the lines I love repeating and have the pleasure of patting my back for having penned it is "IF is a very big word". I mean... its true, isn't it? It's omnipresent! Whatever you've wanted but haven't got or whatever you didn't want and are stuck with is sprinkled with an abstemious amount of IF's .... Our lives revolve and rotate around the word IF... IF I had this.... IF I were this... IF this was like that.... Uff!!

But then why do we never get things we think are the best for us after all to some extent, after being exposed to this ruthless world, we've become sagacious enough to know what is good for us and what is not. A part of me says it may be because of the aphorism we've grown up listening "Sabr ka phal meetha hota hain"... OK, we wait for things to show their prettier face, or better still, wait for better things to come, because that's one ray of hope .... but till when shall one wait.... till the sabr ka phal becomes over ripe and falls of the tree??

Another part of me says that it may be because of Karma... Maybe you're not supposed to have things you've wanted.... or maybe because you snatched it from someone so this birth you're supposed to make do without it.... but then here comes the only thing I don't agree in the Karma Theory(I think you'd have surmised it by now that do believe in the Karma Theory) is why aren't things levelled in one birth itself? Why the carry over method? Its a type of procrastination, isn't it?(This just relives me of the fact that to an extent even the Almighty procrastinates and I'm not the only lazy bum!)

But then another part of me (sorry, but I normally have a million viewpoints about the same thing... one demerit of being a pukki Libran!), the pragmatic and prudent one says that maybe you've not wished enough for it to come to you.... Simply put, you've not worked hard for it... If its a seat in the nation's most aspired for college(Ah! the IIMs come here as well!) and you failed to get it, maybe the effort you put it wasn't enough.. or the effort others put in was more than you did. This is one consideration none of us want to think of when things don't go our way, but it can't be obviated!

So the status quo is I'm confused as to who is to be blamed if I have to use the word IF.... Methinks it depends on the situation.... some amount of human error is bound to be there so is a chance of mistake in the carry over system....

P.S: I seek pardon from all my readers... I was suffering from a massive writer's block and just wanted to get over it so have written down whatever signals my neurons gave to my fingers! So sorry if the post was way too discursive and made just no sense!!