June 4, 2009

LOST

There's something seriously wrong with me....  No one needs to tell that to me, I can feel it. I haven't had a chocolate since early Feb...still no craving for one...I don't feel like eating one..... not even snatching one from someone.... It's been 4 months since cocoa has gone in my system! What's wrong with me!?! I have stopped talking! WTF! Even a 4 hour hang out with my school best friends....talking about guys (guy problems, to be precise)...and I'm all mute... that's definitely not me.... people are known to wanting to gag me for talking too much, and I sit there....all MUTE? I know, I haven't been coming online, returning calls and messages, let alone make some fresh ones...So sorry to everyone who's been hit by my abnormal behaviour. I really don't know what it is. I actually, don't even want to know. 
 
It's just that I'm feeling too incomplete....too restless. And I'm a content person.... restlessness doesn't go with me just like how love and rationality don't go down together. Incomplete.... just like BSB's song Incomplete....which had been on repeat for 3 months on my WMP in 2006 when life was more or less like how it is right now.... The worst part is that I know how life can be complete  once again.... but I don't it to be complete.... not unless it's perfect. I know, there doesn't exist a perfect in this universe, unless it's maths or physics of course, but I want something that tends to perfectness... it's just 4 conditions to be perfect for me. This ain't asking for too much, is it?
 
Two paragraphs already written making no sense at all. And I don't really care. Sorry, to have bothered you to read this piece of crap! You can go ahead to do things more constructive than reading about someone who's lost herself somewhere!!  
 
P.S: Read the second chapter of my story here.

8 comments:

comfortably numb said...

maybe u have finally gotten over trivialities such as chocolate for good:D
on a serious note...I so knw this period which u describe, lekin u knw what, this will end, sooner than later for sure...keep the faith:)

Aanchal said...

GET A LIFE!!!!!!11

Nupur said...

@ Numb: Trying!!

Nupur said...

@ Aanchal: Give me the address, I'll go get it!

Rahul said...

Hey Nupur, dont worry, its just a phase, it will pass very soon, dont be upset... I know it happens & also I understand it puts ourself down but dont think much, it will pass very soon & cheer up, nothing is wrong... And ha definitely I'm waiting for "old-wali" Nupur's newest article :-) so get well soon... :-)

Nupur said...

@ Rahul: Me too....waiting!!

ankit said...

u have been through lot in da past 5 months.....m nt sayin u mgt nt hv been thru b4 bt i knw only of dis phase....

since nw u dnt hv ny commitmnt, u r feelin da mental drain dat all these hv causd.......

dnt wry jst let it pass by.......

DO REMEMBER M ALWYS A FONE OR 10 kms AWAY!!!!!!!!!!

TC!!!!!!!!

Nupur said...

@ Ankit: I know! Thanks! I know you're just a call away...thanks... assurances help!!